have you ever had someone said that they feel so alone
when you had never left their side?
you've tried so hard to be there for them
alone, like your presence meant nothing

for a moment you feel angry
but then you just feel sad
sad that you can't make them happy
that you're never enough

you cried yourself to sleep again...
ironic isn't it?
the reason that would make you stay is also the reason you want to leave...

You keep thinking, maybe if you can just impress upon them just how much you love them, how much you care, maybe if you can just make them understand...But i guess it does happen. No matter what you do, you can never make them love you. You can never make them care.

you feel you have so much love in you to give
and you have given the best that you could
but you need to feel that you're loved in return
you need to feel that you make him happy
that you're enough

do they love him as much as you do?
would they love him as much as you have?

sometimes the heart does grow tired of waiting, hoping...

Emptiness is a long story
that swallows up heaven and earth.
A splash of ink turns into two dragons.
Stray clouds become an azure dog.
Lurking in my bowl: mountains, rivers.
Wheeling through my breast: a sun, a moon.

- Shih-shu

the people you love, the people you care most about, are also the ones that hurt you most...

you're drowning in these thoughts again...
they run in circles in your mind, and you keep getting lost..